spin.

phew... P2 lecture just ended today, which starts from 9am - 6.15pm.... these few days had been hectic to me.... but im actually more worried after today's lecture, where i don't understand most of it... and couldn't have someone to expain to me on the spot which i usually used to ask s.wah... & lots lotsa mistake i made & my worksheet was full of liqiud paper .....everything i did was wrongly done & the worst thing - i don't really know where i got wrong ??? (grr....) my head was spinning like a fan... & loads and tonnes of homework yet to be done...ok let's talk about something else...

P3 exam was still ok this time... hoping i could pass this round. 

tomorrow had to go back hometown for qing ming.... after that would mean i'll definitely be tired , which again means couldn't afford to complete my homework... sigh.

actually would wish to go watch jackie chan & daniel wu next tue... since tze may says its in open cafe...so can actually see them quite near.. at least can take some photo with them..but... ok it all just depends

miss the days..

gone for dinner to meet up with father side relatives, it was about 3 years since last met them, but i only get to meet my uncle & aunty but not my dear cousin brother Kevin since i guess they were having test in HK...  wow.. today finally got to see him & he give me a hug, hehe... it was like 6 years we've not seen each other.. only through photos.. its such a big change.. he has turn so...so...So..charming now...ahaha... miss the days we play on with each other when we were young... & now he's such a gentleman... ok i should stop here... if not i know Sam you'll be laughing at me now... that's all for today ^^

e...m..o...

today in a sudden... a gush of emotion flow through my soul, that i couldn't really understand.... emo emo again, i don't really want to talk, and i hope they will understand. Sometimes when im deep inside of me, don't be too concern, just allow me to stay alone and it'll then be alright...

i apologize if it makes you feel emo, seeing me so tense, with no self confidence.

such a bored feeling im having now..... suppose to be attending P2 class but since its cancelled.. so i insist coming college at 8am.... ending up in library now..... such a bored life im having now.... BORED... is that an illusion?? can i ever see the truth ???

do you?

do you remember me, when i sat upon your knee?

do you understand me?

but at all times you are hurting me..

i hold all my hope on you with childhood fantasy, 

and well im grown up now, 

but ...

i still need help somehow.

i'm not a child anymore but my heart still can dream

so here's my lifelong wish...

not for myself but for you and me...

that everyone will have a friend & love will never end.

well only heaven knows that 

time will heal our soul.

p/s: be strong

can i ??

i've learn to become much independent these days.... done everything by myself, not needed others to accompany me.....and at the same time ..I seldom talk to friends and always keeping quiet aside when the whole bunch of friends of mine were so busy talking & laughing along the way. Is this actually a good sign?? ..for me now in core level..... 

and i hate myself so much... how can i not oversleep ?? since time will not stand still and keeps ticking every seconds...

now i realise that "time" can i hold you please...

You are constantly running,

regardless of any circumstances,

without mercy,

without any sense of consideration.

You're fixed,

I know you are,

and you have not a tinge of emotion.

You do not stop,

for even the most minute fraction,

you just keep on going,

mercilessly transforming what's done into history.

You never seem to be out of breath,

and it takes godlike stamina,

just to keep in pace with you.

Can I hold your hand,

as I really want to walk,

side by side with you,

Time.

sometimes i'll question myself, " do i really enjoy what im doing right now?" .. that now the abiguity of my future is becoming clearer. How should i progress from here?? 

life is a paradox that's always left unexplained.....