growing.

there was one day, when i started to notice myself....staring on that same old page... and my sight has shifted onto both my hands. i slowly find out that i am no longer young or should i say not kiddo anymore, and look up further... both my eyes... that's a sign of ageing, but i prefer to say "growing". CHANGES has surround me all times and my friends, family, taking a look on the photos we'd took.

today, after having fetch mum to mon't kiara club and after studying for some time, i drive along slowly, without any destination in mind, and surprisingly that was actually a not bad idea to take a breath from our ever busy lifestyle. looking at the green grasses land, and there were birds chipping, and clouds covering the blue sky....

also, i'd always been pop into the time with similar numbers, 09:09, 21:21, 16:16, 23:23, everyday i will at least see these 4-5 times, wondering does this happen to everyone??

and this place 'PALM VILLE' keeps appearing in my dream, the funny thing is that i always see the big sign board with these words 'PALM VILLE' on it, what does it signal?? a bit curious... but here are some photos took when i got up the condo just opposite of klcc, i like the klcc view but not to such close extent, any view from you guys??

i enjoy the silence . . . . .

what a nice place to be .... sitting down with dear angela..... chatting from 12 - 5pm, those days how we used to be and now looking at changes we have gone through within these years, it just look so special to me.

and not to forget to recommend to all guys and gals that pizzas here were fabulous, certainly far more better than pizza hut or other italian restaurants. not only that, prices were cheap, we ordered two regular pizzas at only RM31.90 .... and the environment was too nice, really a nice place for chit chats...

lastly, hoping everyone enjoy their current life and not to do something just for the sake of completing it. and i have found mine . . . to work towards my goal from now on.

haywire

my life has gone H.A.Y.W.I.R.E . . . . . not in timing wise, but in terms of goals in life and also commitment and passion. i don't really know what i wish to achieve in life now, no plan, no passion, no determination on anything. laziness has been always surrounding me and i hate myself a lot being stuck in this situation. really feel like punching myself ....

and today i came across a book, saw this ' the quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of chosen field of endeavour. ' >>> a total reflect on myself , sigh :(

i always feel myself being packed up with loads of things, yet not completing any... the only moment i don't feel such when im with my lovely friends, where spending time with them seems to be precious one. today, i have got that warm feeling though bro has gone to melaka, where dad took out his guitar, was playing sentimental songs, which were too lovely and meaningful to me, and mum & I sing along ... so nice!

thanks a lot to sam for the encouragement, told me " if you think you can win, you can! Faith is necessary to victory" .... " to make it to the top, you've got to want it with all your heart"

tense

I had a weird tension that made my forehead like it was tightening & letting go over and over again.

It was not an easy thing to get something done when you do not wish to....

This afternoon, i put the bucket in the sink and run water into it. Lots of things was running through my mind just like the volume of water .... and i just do not understand why human has so much to worry about and perhaps a step back would make things clearer and not to hold on to their own principle as taking advice is not a bad one too... rather than getting stuck in there and yet still wanting to achieve your target.

Now I look closer, i found that im stuck in life and yet i would like to have a break in life after 3 years stuck in ACCA....i would really wish to priortise things all over ... sigh

Just had lunch with a Phd holder, i had notice that his ear loop is so BIGGG... & so THICK.... lol.. Yea, its really alike those Buddha's one..... had quite a nice talk with him & i was asking advice on mba and he say a minimum of mba is neccessary in today's world!! And, i was in doubt in a moment, and this reminds me on CIA qualification as explained by mr. goh, saying sunway students can now get 3 qualifications ......I don't think its an honour for myself to have such a long LONG list of qualification but without the neccessary skills.....

Still hesitating on my next step, any suggestions?? or if any of you will be flying to uk to further studies, inform me please, as i will need companion if im joining, lol....

tired...

after a long journey back to hometown to fetch grandma here, i don't quite like this kinda long travelling as i was the driver, not too long, takes about 2 hours there, where we always reach in only a hour, thanks to the raya traffic! and worst still where on the way back home, rains were pouring cats and dogs and i couldn't see the road, felt so unsafe...

and i meet mr. goh today when we were taking lunch in a vegetarian restaurant at taman desa with grandma, i was a moment stunned because there was a guy turning back to look for extra chairs & as i was just prepared to answer 'sure', then i slowly notice a so familiar chin, lol then its mr. goh, with his wife and daughter....

now only i notice they were mr. goh staying around my area, and mr. michael too !! its such a little small world.... it reminds me of meeting some of my friends in overseas during holidays.... a nice one...

im terribly tired now , mon another occassion, hoping for more time to devote on studies....off im going to bed....

party

Have just come home, gasping with relief from a dinner party, i was hoodwinked into accepting the invitation because she rang using the well-worn trick: ‘What are you doing on Wednesday? And instead saying cautiously ‘Why?’ I fall into the trap, ‘Nothing’ I said.

I was dragged along to it and I know none of them except YOU.... I know... I know, im complaining here, but i know you don't mind since i know you so well....lol. But im accompanying you there so please allow me to grumble a bit on it...

Problem with dinner parties is that, as you get older, you don’t actually want to meet anyone new, well... not really, sometimes i would wish to, it depends. Other people’s favourite people are rarely my favourite people, and vice versa. To be honest, it wasn't that i didn't care about that guy; i liked knowing guys as much as anyone, but i had my own ideas about what it should be. This guy didn't look like anything to me.....

Whole night the other guy caught my eyes, hard to describe, a red and white collar shirt was on him, he's just too nice...

Okay, that's all for today, nitez ! SLEEP EARLY is what i recently aim for, its good for our health don't forget , LOL....

some excuses for me to be lazy

I was born intelligent -
education ruined me.

Practice makes perfect.....
But nobody's perfect......
so why practice?

'Your future depends on your dreams'
So go to sleep

There should be a better way to start a day than waking up every morning

The more you learn, the more you know,
The more you know, the more you forget
The more you forget, the less you know
So.. why learn.

Investment Training Program

Host:	Students of Sunway University College
Price:	Admission is FREE

Date:	Saturday, 26 September 2009
Time:	08:00 - 13:30
Location:	Multi-Purpose Hall, Sunway University College

Let this be the Starting Point for a great investment experience!

Two major topics will be covered in the programme, namely, "Fundamental Analysis" and "Introduction to Futures".

Covering the topic on "Fundamentals Analysis" will be Mr. Tan Teng Boo, managing director of Capital Dynamics and a renowned fund manager in Malaysia.He has been a “student” of the stock market for over 38 years and is widely recognized as one of the most consistent and experienced investment managers.

Mr. Terence Ho Soon Hee in turn will be covering the topic on "Introduction to Futures". He is the Manager, Sales and Dealing of Kenanga Deutsche Futures Sdn Bhd. He has 17 years of experience in the Malaysian futures industry.

This programme has been organized by the students of Sunway University College undertaking the ACCA qualification examinations with only one goal in mind; to provide a rare opportunity for students to attend a value-adding educational programme which will not only enhance their knowledge, but to also teach them to utilize those knowledge to their best advantage.

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Broga Hill trip

overall it was a not bad experience, read further then u'll understand what i meant.

when i just stepped into yilian's car, my first response is a big "HUH ?! " because siaoway ffk us, haha, siaoway u miss it, we enjoyed the trip.

went to yilian's house to stay overnight, thanks a lot to her mum for allowing us there and i thought of sleeping at least 3 hours before the hike, and ended up waiting for corey and then only we notice not even any of us brought torch light, the most vital tool for us not to get lost inthere. went to 7-eleven, out of stock it says, then luckily we manage to buy it from another branch. oh ya, i've not experience eating McD at 1.20 am, and another surprising one is that we saw both the tables next to ours, they were ACCA textbooks on there, with sunway's library code, and following we heard through their conversation - 'Joyce' .We were like "What!!", thought of going for a relaxing trip to stay away from ACCA, ended up the god just wanted to remind me on studies again... And there's something i couldn't figure out, can they actually study in McD because we were actually fooling around, with that kinda noise, also at 1am +, ACCA students are tooo tooo.. hardworking! lol

then went to sleep straight at 2am, woke up at 3.15am. again, another experience, haven't really got into my dreamland yet had to wake up.

then off we go at 3.51am, though none of us know the way to, we were only holding a piece of paper with directions in there, and we slightly trap in an accident, not our driver's - corey fault, hehe.

it was really an adventurous one as we got into a few wrong ways and finally manage to reach there at 5am. we were quite relief as there were many cars parked in there already. it was a total BLACK... yea can see nothing when u put up your fingers, then quickly we spray on mosquito repellant and with the help of torch light, there we go, we were the 2nd group leading the way & after 30 mins walk finally we lost our way,lol.... and the groups behind, no one know the way... sigh.

then, we did not give up, and tried to find another way as we were so determine to reach the hill top. the rest of the members they went back down the hill. only left us & another group, so scary... and finally after sweats and scares, finally we conquer BROGA HILL !!! and we too find out surprising that there were many ppl up there and we got up there using the unstepped road, it was so slanting & without steps...

another thing to sigh about is where the naughty clouds were blocking our view of the sunrise, and took some pics ... and i love the siberian husky & poodle upthere... they were so cute...

went for breakfast at cheras then back home to bath. and had some kepo sessions... lol. that's all .... Enjoy a lot!

here i am

its been a while i have lost the feeling to blog up here, as requested by jess and siaowah, here i am, u both should be happy now ? lol

actually their request for update is not the main reason for me being here, for almost 2 weeks, im feeling uneasy with myself that i can't explain, its just like a huge rock laying on my chest, and i don't know what causes that to take place?? hate it so much... argh.... help !!!

i tend to prefer to stay back in college, don't feel like going back home, and prefer to stay alone most of the time, and that i wouldn't try to speak to others unless they take the initiative to....and i went outing too many, which means money left not much, and always tend to find them to talk to, though i know sometimes im disturbing them, but who cares.... haha i know u both will sms me once u see this...

have full whole strech of lectures for the whole week, phew... such a tiring one. attended mr. charlie's lecture, considerably effective in my opinion, whereby he triggers us to think rather than sitting down waiting for answers which i did it the last sem.... and i find this funny where there were once ...after our lunch break, mr. charlie directed us on some so called "after-lunch exercise". it comes around like this, u can try it now while reading this. it starts with you raising either side of the leg, turn it clockwise, continuously....it must be turning clockwise, try it now pls... following by .. raising up one hand of yours, try to write the number '6', and continue turning the leg clockwise while doing this... failure right?? ahahaha.... because you are can't even control your movements...lol

and something mr. michael did mentioned today is that he was asking if anyone knows cooking, and not surprisingly, no hands were up.... and he said we were pathetic..because food is the vital elements for survival and we don't even bother to learn to cook... i was thinking .. quite true actually...haha

that's it for this time, byeee.... back to studies again....

love this

had been hanging on with this song for quite a while, and i think it really means a lot... the lyrics... just to share this...

In life...

Sometimes in life,


You find a special friend;

Someone who changes your life
Just by being part of it.

Someone who makes you laugh
Until you can't stop;

Someone who makes you believe
That there really is good in the world.



And sometimes in life,


You find a special person;

Someone who changes your life,
Who you will have endless conversation with,
Who you don't mind laughing along,
And spending time taking meal with,
Staying on with....

i've got it

its been a while again i didn't update on here.

it was on a sun morning, i force myself to wake up to have breakfast with parents, i hold the alarm clock close enough to see the time because my specs was on the side table, it shows 9.55am. then i walk to the door, open it, and suddenly i follow on with the swing of the door & the momentum of it, and 'doom' i fall towards the floor. what an ouch! i didn't know how it happen, but the only thing i know where i lost my balancing that moment & that's why i fell, so clumsy....

also, enjoy a lot last sat, on the overheard movie & karaoke of course, looking forward for our next time... hehe

and was too happy to receive a call yesterday noon, that i could attend eason's chan concert this sat, hahahahaha..... but too bad, i wish to go along with her....sigh. hoping that she will be able to shout out long together with me before our results day.

today, PT1 on P6.... what a wast of time, totally repeating questions, was so lazy to write down the answers.... it doesn't really bothers me... PT1....argh forget about it...& there's something relieve that P4 is not a too tough one for the time being ..yeah!

lastly, of course results again, hoping everyone passes and celebrate next mon, cheer everyone....

hi! im back....

After keeping my blog abandoned for such a long time, I decided to fill something in here, hehe...... btw thanks a lot to those who care a lot for me, concerning what had took place for not updating my blog.....lol...

Phew... lots and lots of things had happened.....first was of course a few outings and gatherings with my dear friends and i’ve been lazy to put up any photo in here.... my laziness explains it all...lol....and the sad thing was that i wouldn’t be able to attend lecture together with all my buddies due to different option paper chosen, miss the days .... up next was that my grandpa who passed away... i love u always....

Oh ya, about the prom night, didn’t really get to enjoy it because i was too tired physically and mentally i guess.... but i didn’t regret attending it as the pretty pics took with all guys and gals was the reward for it, hahaha. Also, the experience in Euphoria, was much smaller than what i had expected, and i was basically mentally awake due to enormously loud beat sound in there, i wouldn’t call that ‘music’..... enjoy that day.

Following by my dear Siao Wah’s birthday, just to say sorry here that i have not got you any present for your sweet 20th birthday, even till now, forgive me please..... hehe....anything you would want inform me please as i don’t really know what you would wish to have....again sorry for that. Anyway, i did not plan any surprise for you, but just hoping that you are enjoy that night and the card !

That’s all for this time, see you guys and gals as i am not too sure when i will update my blog, i promise i will do so if i find the time..... feel free to leave down some comments and i’ll try to reply as soon as possible, anything urgent please contact me through hp, take care.....

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know

i realise.

i don't really know how important my parents are to me until they left s'pore and also at the wrong time (before my finals....sigh)haha.. anyway it has past. that i have to do everything on my own ( not hoping bro will help)... sometimes being lonely & scared.... but im happy to have very thoughtful friends of mine.... thank you so much jess, sam, ken, hau for making up some lame jokes, alvin thanks for your encouragement, especially siaowah ..thanks for everything.

at the same time, realise that it's time to relax... hop off again

it's a dot.

the title shows that this post will start with a dot and ends with a dot too.

really taking 3 papers along at acca part 3 level is not an easy thing or probably could be an easy & hectic one. but actually have not really regret taking 3 papers along.

P1.. was ok..i mean the questions... but just hoping im not crapping in the answer script. P2, was a total shock... minimal hope on it. as for P3, questions are easy.. but time constraint is the main problem. too sad. wish there would be half more hour.

the matter of passing for this sitting doesn't really itch me for the time being.. so just relax and let it be... looking forward to enjoy my holidayz.... hoooray..

love the lyrics

here i am to share with you all on this song, its such a nice one.... especially the lyrics, please click to listen. ok back to bury myself with the books.. & take care.


陈奕迅 - 今天只做一件事

发觉这世界永远太少空间
因此花一天支配一切时间
发觉这世界永远太晒心机
因此花一天思索一切道理
消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海
或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱
或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱
慢慢地合作新诗
静静地同床午睡
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾 和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱
慢慢地迈向听朝
静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱

发觉这世界永远太少深刻
因此花一天改变一切习惯
发觉这世界永远太多跷蹊
因此花一天拥有一切运气
消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海
或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱
或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱
慢慢地合唱k歌
静静地同游网上
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾 和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱
慢慢地迈向听朝
静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱
喜欢花一天跟你一切是爱

yeah.

it start off with a happy one after receiving a sms this morning, my heart was like shinning out, hehe. okay, today's P3 lecture was wholly on IT..... IT & IT again... for 6 hours, it nearly kills me, know nothing about it, have the feeling that i've gone into an IT course. Wondering why should accountants study IT ?? why not leave the job to the IT specialist, what is it to be bother with accounting??

alright, i'll just bear with it. Oh ya, about the movie "Shinjuku Incident", watched it with family last thurs with the free tickets, was unexpectedly a good one, my only opinion is thumbs up!! but wonder why my other friends say it was just so so.... (different view of different people)

lots & lots of notes to be revise.....

homeworks left aside....

mock exams is just a few days away...

so just gotta stop blogging for this 2 months... so friends take care & wish me good luck !

leadership.

met lam yew today...its been like a month ago i'd saw him the last time.... wah.. he has changed. changed into someone more neatly dressed up than before & i could hardly recognized him. also..a change that he has turn mature.... having his own thinking, idea, vision which i personally would admire someone to know exactly what they want to do.... clearly know where they are heading to, unlike me.

gone for a leadership talk today, by Alan Jones the MD of GE(M), it was quite a useful & interesting one.... where he mentioned that to be able to lead, we must have the "PIE".

Performance
Image/Influence
Exposure

which i think is reasonably true. I remember the last part where he says ' to LEAD.... is to influence others to follow you but not through authority'. Don't you all agree ?

and also... i admire those who raise up some questions ....that i wouldn't have think of it before previously.... so i have to change my mindset. have a clear mindset... & don't be too shallow minded.... that passing ACCA is just getting the cert. & there's a long more way to go.... to learn the soft skills in practice....ok that's all & again i've not been studying because of this laptop... i've really got to resist myself from using it.... STUDY kiwen....

lazy

it's now 11.33pm. i'd been sneezing for 3 weeks but i refuse to take on medicine because i believe my immune is strong enough to fight off the germs.... but after 3 weeks of experiment... i've been proven wrong. i've just have to surrender & just swallowed in panadol pills... hoping it'll be better tomorrow.

and i'd been wearing my monthly disposable contact lense for 47 days till now (without me noticing it untill i counted the days today..hehe)...... wonder whether there'll be a tumor growing in my eyeball.... hope not. but i'll dispose it later when i go to bed... so don't worry. oh ya, im now blogging with my new own laptop... bought it from pc fair yesterday.. whoa it was so terribly crowded.. i wouldn't want to go there again.

also, i've been too bored with all songs in my ipod currently.....anyone have nice songs... please feel free & recommend it to me.... needed it urgently.... as u all know i'll die without music....lifeless. since it's already lifeless to engage with ACCA.... so i decided to throw all notes away..far away from me.... yea .. i like that attitude.

today...fell asleep in class again...oh ya, got back my P3 ....not even anyone pass.... omg... how am i going to pass ??? ok..time for bed ( now : 12.18am)

its been so sooooo long i've not met sw.... hope she'll recover soon... then i could chat(actually disturbing her) all time.... will not meet her though im having lectures everyday.... miss her ..xD

stay strong.

There's time when you feel like giving up.

There's time when you meet failure and don't feel like standing up again.
But Obstacles.
Everyone has to go through it.
You are not the worst. You won't be the worst.
Because there's always people even unfortunate than you.
Yet, they still live the life.
They never give up because they always appreciate life.
They are awesome, for who they are.
We are awesome, for who we are.
Even if you think you are not good in anything.
Be Thankful, for who you are and what you have.

.......

Despite the recent hectic life im having, i'm currently in love with a super emo song with such a nice voice

don't let your mood get ruin by this... smile :)

plan.

These past two weeks had been hectic.
And I still seemed a bit disorientated.
I must be more organized.


If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.
As cliche as it may sound, it's quite surprising how true this twist of words is.

Competition is getting stronger, though not very obvious.
Everyone seems to be one step ahead, yet I'm trying my best to catch up.
Maybe I should try planning ahead, like a week ahead.
Speaking of which, planning even just one day ahead could be hard sometimes.
Or should i say things usually do not turn out as what has been planned...

Determinations are hard to come by nowadays.
Wonder why.
Sometimes I feel like I'm a burden to my groupmates.
And I'm more pushy these days than ever.

plan ahead pls..

daniel wu & jackie chan.

went to lot 10 last tue just after P1 lecture, just to have a chance to meet Daniel Wu & Jackie Chan ...but for me im personally more interested on daniel wu...hehe . It was my first time following the celebrities. it was a high tea event only for those who won the tickets, i didn't get the honour to meet them so close but siao wah & tze may were so lucky ... envy here :/

tze may & siao wah... the 2 lucky friends of mine ^^

waited since 5 o'clock, while waiting have been the photographer of the session ....

>> at jackie chan cafe

ahaha... got him 

daniel wu, he's so charm !

even the way he sits ...

try looking at what's tze may doing? grrr....

sitting on where daniel wu was sitted...

there's siao wah, me & tze may

not to forget hereby to once again thanks a lot to tze may's mum for fetching us there and of course siao wah... thank you so much for leading me back home ... she was like holding my hands... make me feel like when i was young, mummy used to hold my hands to cross the road.... happy happy day... and of course the girls talk during midnight.. it was an unforgettable one

spin.

phew... P2 lecture just ended today, which starts from 9am - 6.15pm.... these few days had been hectic to me.... but im actually more worried after today's lecture, where i don't understand most of it... and couldn't have someone to expain to me on the spot which i usually used to ask s.wah... & lots lotsa mistake i made & my worksheet was full of liqiud paper .....everything i did was wrongly done & the worst thing - i don't really know where i got wrong ??? (grr....) my head was spinning like a fan... & loads and tonnes of homework yet to be done...ok let's talk about something else...

P3 exam was still ok this time... hoping i could pass this round. 

tomorrow had to go back hometown for qing ming.... after that would mean i'll definitely be tired , which again means couldn't afford to complete my homework... sigh.

actually would wish to go watch jackie chan & daniel wu next tue... since tze may says its in open cafe...so can actually see them quite near.. at least can take some photo with them..but... ok it all just depends

miss the days..

gone for dinner to meet up with father side relatives, it was about 3 years since last met them, but i only get to meet my uncle & aunty but not my dear cousin brother Kevin since i guess they were having test in HK...  wow.. today finally got to see him & he give me a hug, hehe... it was like 6 years we've not seen each other.. only through photos.. its such a big change.. he has turn so...so...So..charming now...ahaha... miss the days we play on with each other when we were young... & now he's such a gentleman... ok i should stop here... if not i know Sam you'll be laughing at me now... that's all for today ^^

e...m..o...

today in a sudden... a gush of emotion flow through my soul, that i couldn't really understand.... emo emo again, i don't really want to talk, and i hope they will understand. Sometimes when im deep inside of me, don't be too concern, just allow me to stay alone and it'll then be alright...

i apologize if it makes you feel emo, seeing me so tense, with no self confidence.

such a bored feeling im having now..... suppose to be attending P2 class but since its cancelled.. so i insist coming college at 8am.... ending up in library now..... such a bored life im having now.... BORED... is that an illusion?? can i ever see the truth ???

do you?

do you remember me, when i sat upon your knee?

do you understand me?

but at all times you are hurting me..

i hold all my hope on you with childhood fantasy, 

and well im grown up now, 

but ...

i still need help somehow.

i'm not a child anymore but my heart still can dream

so here's my lifelong wish...

not for myself but for you and me...

that everyone will have a friend & love will never end.

well only heaven knows that 

time will heal our soul.

p/s: be strong

can i ??

i've learn to become much independent these days.... done everything by myself, not needed others to accompany me.....and at the same time ..I seldom talk to friends and always keeping quiet aside when the whole bunch of friends of mine were so busy talking & laughing along the way. Is this actually a good sign?? ..for me now in core level..... 

and i hate myself so much... how can i not oversleep ?? since time will not stand still and keeps ticking every seconds...

now i realise that "time" can i hold you please...

You are constantly running,

regardless of any circumstances,

without mercy,

without any sense of consideration.

You're fixed,

I know you are,

and you have not a tinge of emotion.

You do not stop,

for even the most minute fraction,

you just keep on going,

mercilessly transforming what's done into history.

You never seem to be out of breath,

and it takes godlike stamina,

just to keep in pace with you.

Can I hold your hand,

as I really want to walk,

side by side with you,

Time.

sometimes i'll question myself, " do i really enjoy what im doing right now?" .. that now the abiguity of my future is becoming clearer. How should i progress from here?? 

life is a paradox that's always left unexplained.....

now...

now only i notice that life has its occasional letdowns and not everyone is worth their word.

today its my first time attending P3 lecture without siao wah... :(

As expected, it was so bored without her accompany me. So the only way to get rid of this boredom is to concentrate .. haha. I managed to but only for a few hours.... then fell asleep (during lecture) till my handphone fell off the table without me noticing it untill the guy sitting in front pick it up.... aiks first time sleeping in class xD

i guess because we were too used to sitting with each other, her absence really make a difference to me, just like "can't live without her"...haha ^^( hoping that she won't be reading this...). but i really hope to attend every lecture with her but i know it'll not happen.. (how i wish..)

and decisions agains... its pretty a difficult one for me...

this post is a continuation of the previous one.... once again THANK YOU to all my fellow friends & you* 

thanks a lot to all the wishes .... in fact its pretty lucky to have friends... and im especially thankful to having friends who remember about my birthday...

this year's birthday have been bringing more surprises to me.... starting:

1. surprise party organized by siao wah... was totally out of my expectation.. thank you so much for making the effort to buying the white chocolate cake...was so touched at one moment & wanted to hug siao wah but didn't get the chance to... again celebrated with my college mates.. ^^

2. receiving wishes by sms & calls.... thank you so much... and must mention about this that jun yi thanks you so much although you are at indonesia... still remember me.. was another surprise & loving one

3. receiving sms from samantha, michelle, yee wei from UK !! this was the first time getting birthday wishes from UK... thanks a lot for even counting the time difference of 7 hours...so loving of you all... muacks... 

4. had bit of dissapointment of when some of my highschool mates have forgotten to wish me at 6/2/09 itself but was surprised me was receiving birthday cards & presents at the next day... especially sit joanne... ahaha... sit sit.. you was so funny on that day....but jing yi i want linda chung's album (why out of stock?? grr..)

5. thanks to clement for your present !! ( if you are reading this... thank you so much for making the effort to find the wrapping paper that matches so well with it!! ... also thanks for the card.. appreciate it a lot..)

6. thank you to siao wah... im really lucky to have you as my friend.. thanks for the card.. the card means a lot to me.. that i'll keep it properly... what is in the deep of my heart is just more than words..... a million times thank you will never be enough .... thank you so much...

7. thank you jennifer, maple, sook voon, susan, lam yew, mint tzet, kah jun, paul, boon heng, chuen jein, chit yuen, shu yi, korine, yit tze, etc..

(photos will be post later )

just want to say

just want to say ....

Happy 19 th Birthday 

to myself !

thank you so much to all of you who had made the effort to wish me and 

especially a BIG big thank you to siao wah!!! wanted to give her a hug that day but didn't get the chance to..... ( but can a hug you another day???)

i have a lot more to say... but i don't have the time now ...had to prepare myself for test... 

TO BE CONTINUE...

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO ALL GALS & GUYS. take care...

p/s: wish to have linda's album as present but since they said its out of stock ... there it goes ( bit of dissapointment) 

Chinese New Year

just a brief one of where i'd went & peoples i'd met .... 

my cute little cousins ... nicholas wong 

& curtiz wong .... aren't they cute ??

they are more of them but didn't get the chance to take photo coz they were too naughty la..

2nd day.... went to ma ma's house for lunch following by some relatives house 

3rd day.... went back to seremban.... & also did went to port dickson for a walk... but too bad i didn't bring  my clothes there... can only walk but not swim ..

4th day... again relative house 

5th day... went house hopping with college mates ... visited wai yin's , ming ting's , seh yung's & su tyng's house.... enjoy a lot !!!! took some pics.. will post it later ...also not to forget to thanks lam yew for sending me back.. 

6th day ... rest day & flip on my notes

and i've got to go for a chinese new year party tommorow night.... seven days ..all occupied !!! how am i gonna have the time to study??? help !!!

too sad ...

still remember the guy of my bro's friend who got leukemia?? this morning, got a sudden message saying that he had just passed away this morning.... i felt so sad about it... i'll wish to send my condolence to yee sook's family ... 

as today is the chinese new year eve.... and i believe his parents will be thoroughly painful during this chinese new year.... what a sad one... they don't even have the chance to have their last reunion dinner.... :(

now only i know how much should we appreciate our love ones.... so to all friends out there... please do appreciate our life as we had got the choice  to do what we want to... 

happy chinese new year to all .........

happy : )

feel so happy yesterday..... because i've been laughing all the way from afternoon till night ... went to pyramid yesterday ... to spend our ample time before attending the financial english classes.... its wasn't a planned one.... but ended up so happy with it.. actually sometimes unexpected ones will bring more enjoyment i guess.... 

also .. another unexpected one.. which is to have  a surprise birthday party for yi wen.... i think it's really a surprise one to her..... and i love surprises  la..being envy here..haha..  oh currently have to think of present for yi wen... took some photos .. but will only post it after i get it from siao wah ...

and we did took some of the chinese new year decoration around pyramid.... they was a funny one where me & siao wah did the funny gong xi fa cai pose...ahaha... will post it later too....

oh ya.. found this on my phone .. me & siao wah were playing this kids game suitable for age 3-4.. ahaha.....

bout the ICFE classes..... so bored ... and after class get to meet up with yi lian, susan, kay sim, clement.. we were all talking about the lecturers...so funny... but anyway as what clement say will skip some  of the classes since the ACCA papers are that heavy.... ok .. time to go.... 

p/s: happy chinese new year to all !!!! 

change...

in a new year, a new semester......everything has changed..... CHANGES ??? everything around me has changed... a total change.... people have changed.... their attitude changed.... thinking changed... lifestyle changed.... somehow i don't understand why sometimes i feel a bit left out or might be there must be a change in myself to adapt to others?? somehow i  felt some of my friends who are used to be so close .. in sudden felt so far ..which is out of my reach... they seem like a stranger to me. while on the other side.... those which i  used to say hi to them .. are getting closer ... ???

but all i want is just to be myself. as we are born as what we are, not as what others want us to be... isn't it right?? 

i hate that feeling being retracted by others...why can't they just remain ... no no changes pls... or from the other point of view.. if we do not change.... there'll not be any improvement... conflict again...

p/s: guess i'll get used to it as time goes by...hope so

confidence

just another update that i've been thoroughly busy these 2 weeks.... though its just only 2 weeks of studies...  its a sigh that i only felt how heavy are the syllabus of the core papers... wohoo...

and i told myself not to give up easy, i've many miles more to go, but i can't wait to get to what I see down this road and all my life. I've learned to just take it day by day. I'm not there yet but I know I'm on my way. I still got lessons to be learned, there's a choice at every turn. and could there be no turning back?

but i've always long for adventure,to do the things that i've never did, my heart should be wildly rejoycing, and now im facing adventure, but why im i so scared? what's the matter with me?? 

actually what so fearsome about that. ooh i must stop all these doubts all these worries, if i don't i just know i'll turn there, i must dream of the things im seeking.... i should seek the courage i lack. the courage to face my mistake without defiance... i must show myself that im worthy.. somehow i'll impress myself...hehe

p/s : have confidence in yourself ... 

miss u

-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:40 PM:
hey hey
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:40 PM:
im fine here
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:40 PM:
it snowed one day last time only
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:40 PM:
hehe
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:41 PM:
it;s towards the end of the term now
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:41 PM:
gonna have our christmas hols soon on the 5th of dec
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:41 PM:
you're gonna have your finals soon/.
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:41 PM:
?
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:41 PM:
time really flies
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:42 PM:
just last time when we met you told me there is still a long way to go
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:42 PM:
and now it ;s so near ade
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:42 PM:
hehe
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:42 PM:
all the best in your exams
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:42 PM:
hehe
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:42 PM:
i will miss you
-korine- sent 22/11/2008 7:42 PM:
just cant help it

p/s: miss you too...take care 

happy new year to ALL !

there goes 2008..... here comes 2009.

hmm...a year has passed. sometimes i would think it's all a little too quick. i've been thinking what i've done throughout the whole year. actually its a bit of  dissapointing not to be able to go for the bali trip due to unwanted cirsumstances.... but in fact its really a joy to hang out with friends and during this period .. i'd gone for 6 of those gatherings.. and 4  of out the 6 ones... involves karaoke .... phew.... won't be goin for K anytime soon...hehe

its really a sigh not being able to join friends for count down.... at one U...but nevermind i still managed to watch fireworks just from my garden view... its really awesome one and thanks a lot to the gardens .. that gave me the chance to watch it in a silent and not needed to squeeze between the crowds ... screaming " wa....wa.....WA......" all along.... ahahaa..

i promise myself that i must go for countdown with my friends next year... but it maybe my final semester. time really hasn't been kind.... will miss them a lot. its so fast, i've been in sunway for 2 years alreaady. just like  that. its pretty bitter sweet. i will appreciate the moments i'll be having  with my friends... i will...

so...a new year.... new wishes...new resolution....really  hoping i'll pass the 3 papers. and  to  try my very best for the remaining papers....