can i ??

i've learn to become much independent these days.... done everything by myself, not needed others to accompany me.....and at the same time ..I seldom talk to friends and always keeping quiet aside when the whole bunch of friends of mine were so busy talking & laughing along the way. Is this actually a good sign?? ..for me now in core level..... 

and i hate myself so much... how can i not oversleep ?? since time will not stand still and keeps ticking every seconds...

now i realise that "time" can i hold you please...

You are constantly running,

regardless of any circumstances,

without mercy,

without any sense of consideration.

You're fixed,

I know you are,

and you have not a tinge of emotion.

You do not stop,

for even the most minute fraction,

you just keep on going,

mercilessly transforming what's done into history.

You never seem to be out of breath,

and it takes godlike stamina,

just to keep in pace with you.

Can I hold your hand,

as I really want to walk,

side by side with you,

Time.

sometimes i'll question myself, " do i really enjoy what im doing right now?" .. that now the abiguity of my future is becoming clearer. How should i progress from here?? 

life is a paradox that's always left unexplained.....