Lost...

I don't know just where i'm going and when you ask me who I am? I really don't know ... What is my vision? And do I have a plan? Where is my strength? Have I nothing to say?
Its true, im currently lost and I don't know what tomorrow brings.

Everyone needs someone they can talk to, but is that someone out there who is willing to listen to me? Are you there to catch me when I fall?

We tend to forget who we are, we can't see in the dark and we quickly get lost in the crowd.

BUT, can't i try just a little bit harder, can't i give just a little bit more, can't i try to understand, can't i try with just a little more passion. Just to find out who we are ..... & where are we heading to ...

No Matter What ...

In the past, no matter what you tell me, no matter what you do, no matter what youteach me, no matter what you call me, no matter where you take me, i'll find my own way back. You held my hand when it was cold. When I was lost you took me home and you gave me hope. You gave me strength to stand alone again, to face the world on my own again.

NOW, I felt that she don't understand me, and i don't feel comfortable talking to her as what it use to be in the past, where i share my everything in my daily life with her, she tend to be standing on the other side, leaving me standing here alone. WHY? Why is it happening?

Also, why did he turn into such a person? I hate him now ...

I really don't know where do I stand, I only feel comfortable talking to him, where i feel that he's true enough, not pretending in anyway.

But, probably this is the only place where I could express my feelings, thoughts, my problems ... I really hope that it will past & im looking forward for the days in the past. I believe the day will come...

The Birthday Girl - Siao Wah

when the cake just arrived.... look at her big smile


happily cutting the cake...

Happy 19th Birthday to you!!!! Siao Wah - my dearest friend. XD!

Wa.... yesterday the whole gang of friends - 16 of us went to Manhattan Fish Market to celebrate her birthday. Im so envy la, so many friends celebrate birthday for her, unlike mine, haih too bad due to wrong timing (some of my friends should know about it), okay better don't mention about it.From the other point of view, im happy with my lifestyle currently & i will definitely appreciate everything that im having now, all my friends, parents. Also, no worries for what everyone in life is worrying now - MONEY, the only thing to worry or should i say just to focus on studies (or other things la, hehe)

She's quite happy with the presents we gave to her, phew luckily, effort not wasted. ( Dedicated to Siao Wah here: Anyway, i really appreciate the days we had in the past & hope it'll remain the same currently & in future, THANK YOU SO MUCH !!! )

Photos time :

Group photo

Me & the birthday girl ^^

wow, fire burning our food HOT caution !!!

waa...look delicous rite, watch out your saliva !!!

foo helping us to finish the big big fish ....


look who's in there ?? Still not having enough of your own portion? Joking la..

jonathan trying to act macho... & his darling

Group photo again ..

Proudly present our birthday girl - Siao Wah(so happy with her octopusy)

Lastly, to wish her once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

Gathering & Farewell

Last Sat, went to YUEN steamboat restaurant to gather with high school friends also to say farewell to Jun Yi because she's leaving to overseas to further her studies in medicine field. Wow, i always have in mind that those who were determine to choose this path were really impressive, as they were to spend lots of their time before being a pro doctor, & also lotsa money, haha XD. And true enough, they were have to take on the responsibility towards public, to heal our life, its not an easy job ya. Wait ... let's come back to topic!!!


As usual, not surprisingly that there were 3 more of them couldn't make it for the gathering. Again, everytime there'll be busy ones.. haih too bad, why can't everyone just make it for once??? Okay, not to mention bout that .....there i saw , let's take a look at pics & there u'll see :






After that, went back to Pyramid again.(something very funny happen but not allowed to mention here, later i get XXXX....hehe !!) And also went to Redbox again, haha.... Of course picture time again :








Group photo..









from left: jia yi, sook voon, jun yi, angela



jennifer & I (sisters forever ya ? )




jennifer, junyi & I


angela & I


Lastly, just want to wish all the best to Jun Yi in her further studies & remember not to forget us ya ?? In 3 to 4 years time, i believe everyone will not be the same anymore, just hoping that our friendship will not change forever.


Btw, really enjoy meeting all you girls ya, miss you all, hoping we'll get to meet each other very soon. Really MISS YOU ALL GIRLS VERY MUCH !!!!! (very very much)



(Just wanna say sorry to someone here for im wrong for the past 2 days .... hoping XXX'll understand, SORRY !!! Don't get angry k?? )

Just let it be ...

Now, i'll just let it be, let it be....let it be, there will be an answer, so just let it be...

I've lost my own reflection, don't know where im going to ...

And I feel that im away from the path. And if this is the moment I stand here on my own, if this is the right passage that somehow leads me home, I might be afraid but its my turn to be brave, I BELIEVE !!!!

Or should I say "Just let it go".... before anything happens....

爱的代价

Listening to this song lately, & it represents what I feels ......being emo again...

爱的代价 - 梁咏琪


也许我偶尔还是会想他
偶尔难免会惦记著他
就当他是个老朋友啊
也让我心疼也让我牵挂
只是我心中不再有火花
让往事都随风去吧
所有真心的 痴心的话
仍在我心中虽然已没有他
走吧 走吧 人总要学著自己长大
走吧 走吧 人生难免经历苦痛挣扎
走吧 走吧 为自己的心找一个家
也曾伤心流泪 也曾黯然心碎
这是爱的代价

Is he ??

"Is he? ..... Am I ....? So..... but.... " Those who are reading this must be thinking what am I writing about right? It just what keep buzzing my mind these few weeks .... I've tried & suceeded but it only last for 1 or 2 days i think.... I just can't get it off my mind, whenever im studying i can't get any facts into my brain, i ended up daydreaming...... haih....too bad. I kept telling myself don't think too much, just let things get on naturally.... ok i promise !!!

Friends Gathering

For the past few Saturday, went out to Mid Valley to gather with secondary school friends, last one was around December. So, I expected around 10 of us to be there. (especiall jun yi coz she’s leaving to Indonesia for medicine studies ).I was the first one to reach…..too disappointed that only 5 of us get to make it , as for the others all having their own business. But, there’ll be another gathering very soon (Shh.. can’t tell now).

Anyway, we get together went to have our lunch, sit down & talk for hours, haha… we all quite kinda “bak gua”, waaa… throughut the conversation, found out quite a lot of them had bf already & the others too. Some of them break off & found another already. Waa.. why they can find another in such a short time, they only need a short time to recover( I think ..) !! When they ask about me…whether I’m having any ? ( I answer no lo.. ). I haven found mine yet ma…too bad….it’s okay, i’ll just let the god decide when’s the right time ..hahahahehe

Only get to take one photo( upload later)….coz forgot …was busy talking to each other XD..

Anyway, just be patient, my prince will come when it’s the right time. >>> I BELIEVE !!!

First Time.....

For the past 2 days, i'd my first time working experience, not actually working because i was just helping my dad, where one of his company has a booth at the KLCC "ARCHIDEX'08" exhibition.

As for Sat, reached there at 11am, then its work time. Basically, what i got to do or should i say what i can do is just giving out the leaflet & attending the customers. But since i only know the basic info of the products, i can only answer some of the basic ones, so bad, i wish i knew more about it, just for eg the price per square feet of different kind of window & door system. At least, i manage to remember some of it after working for the 2 days.

> my tag for the day <

Let's take a look at pics first :

>i like this stairway a lot !!! Its so style <

> nice view of the twin tower <

> along the hallway <

Dad's company's name : Le Diamant

> i like this glass, made up of broken glasses <

> perhaps u can see me in the reflection , haha <

> the louvers <

After that, around 3pm, went around the hall to take a look at others products. I didn't get to rest before that ,basically its quite a busy & tiring day !! (especially my legs coz of the high heels , ouch !! )

Here are some pics taken where i found them quite interesting ones :

> how i wish i could have one , price RM71,000, wow, for 4 person <

> funny toilet bowls <

> shinning tiles .... i like it <

> crystal ??? forgot wat's that called ,hehe <

> its a new version of shower, where water fall straight from the ceiling, see that? <

> this buddha casting is very special, it will look at u all time wherever u go, take a look at pics below ? <

> interesting right? <

> my mom love this painting a lot!! <

Something funny is that i don't feel hungry at all although i didn't take my lunch then around 4pm, some of the booths they had free food for tea time for the customers, then i went to pick up one curry puff & cinnamon pie, taste good too !! Nowadays, its so tough in business where they had to provide free food for the customers where they don't have it for years before it.

Later, at 7pm, its closing time for the exhibition but its not the end of the day because all exhibitors were invited to a professional networking evening, so happily we went there because i thought that finally we can sit down comfortably for my legs to have some rest. Unfortunately, when i reached the ball room, saw everyone standing in groups, where there's drinks & snacks being served. Its really an open eye to me, getting expose how to socialise & the ball was mainly mend for the architect professionals. Pictures again :

> in the ballroom <

> i tried for the beer but its so bitter, so i got to go for the juice <

> the long bread stick <

> hmm....<

Around 8.30pm, dad was again invited to his staff's party in kepong. So, got to rush there & reached at 9pm. It was the "full moon" baby party, she got a "long fung tai" dunno wat u call in eng, sorry ! It was test tube babies, she tried 5 times before that & finally successful this time, spent about RM60K for it....waa...so expensive to get baby . Anyway, reached home at 11pm.....after taking bath...went to bed Zzzzz... straight off coz i was too tired .