Lost...

I don't know just where i'm going and when you ask me who I am? I really don't know ... What is my vision? And do I have a plan? Where is my strength? Have I nothing to say?
Its true, im currently lost and I don't know what tomorrow brings.

Everyone needs someone they can talk to, but is that someone out there who is willing to listen to me? Are you there to catch me when I fall?

We tend to forget who we are, we can't see in the dark and we quickly get lost in the crowd.

BUT, can't i try just a little bit harder, can't i give just a little bit more, can't i try to understand, can't i try with just a little more passion. Just to find out who we are ..... & where are we heading to ...

No Matter What ...

In the past, no matter what you tell me, no matter what you do, no matter what youteach me, no matter what you call me, no matter where you take me, i'll find my own way back. You held my hand when it was cold. When I was lost you took me home and you gave me hope. You gave me strength to stand alone again, to face the world on my own again.

NOW, I felt that she don't understand me, and i don't feel comfortable talking to her as what it use to be in the past, where i share my everything in my daily life with her, she tend to be standing on the other side, leaving me standing here alone. WHY? Why is it happening?

Also, why did he turn into such a person? I hate him now ...

I really don't know where do I stand, I only feel comfortable talking to him, where i feel that he's true enough, not pretending in anyway.

But, probably this is the only place where I could express my feelings, thoughts, my problems ... I really hope that it will past & im looking forward for the days in the past. I believe the day will come...

The Birthday Girl - Siao Wah

when the cake just arrived.... look at her big smile


happily cutting the cake...

Happy 19th Birthday to you!!!! Siao Wah - my dearest friend. XD!

Wa.... yesterday the whole gang of friends - 16 of us went to Manhattan Fish Market to celebrate her birthday. Im so envy la, so many friends celebrate birthday for her, unlike mine, haih too bad due to wrong timing (some of my friends should know about it), okay better don't mention about it.From the other point of view, im happy with my lifestyle currently & i will definitely appreciate everything that im having now, all my friends, parents. Also, no worries for what everyone in life is worrying now - MONEY, the only thing to worry or should i say just to focus on studies (or other things la, hehe)

She's quite happy with the presents we gave to her, phew luckily, effort not wasted. ( Dedicated to Siao Wah here: Anyway, i really appreciate the days we had in the past & hope it'll remain the same currently & in future, THANK YOU SO MUCH !!! )

Photos time :

Group photo

Me & the birthday girl ^^

wow, fire burning our food HOT caution !!!

waa...look delicous rite, watch out your saliva !!!

foo helping us to finish the big big fish ....


look who's in there ?? Still not having enough of your own portion? Joking la..

jonathan trying to act macho... & his darling

Group photo again ..

Proudly present our birthday girl - Siao Wah(so happy with her octopusy)

Lastly, to wish her once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

Gathering & Farewell

Last Sat, went to YUEN steamboat restaurant to gather with high school friends also to say farewell to Jun Yi because she's leaving to overseas to further her studies in medicine field. Wow, i always have in mind that those who were determine to choose this path were really impressive, as they were to spend lots of their time before being a pro doctor, & also lotsa money, haha XD. And true enough, they were have to take on the responsibility towards public, to heal our life, its not an easy job ya. Wait ... let's come back to topic!!!


As usual, not surprisingly that there were 3 more of them couldn't make it for the gathering. Again, everytime there'll be busy ones.. haih too bad, why can't everyone just make it for once??? Okay, not to mention bout that .....there i saw , let's take a look at pics & there u'll see :






After that, went back to Pyramid again.(something very funny happen but not allowed to mention here, later i get XXXX....hehe !!) And also went to Redbox again, haha.... Of course picture time again :








Group photo..









from left: jia yi, sook voon, jun yi, angela



jennifer & I (sisters forever ya ? )




jennifer, junyi & I


angela & I


Lastly, just want to wish all the best to Jun Yi in her further studies & remember not to forget us ya ?? In 3 to 4 years time, i believe everyone will not be the same anymore, just hoping that our friendship will not change forever.


Btw, really enjoy meeting all you girls ya, miss you all, hoping we'll get to meet each other very soon. Really MISS YOU ALL GIRLS VERY MUCH !!!!! (very very much)



(Just wanna say sorry to someone here for im wrong for the past 2 days .... hoping XXX'll understand, SORRY !!! Don't get angry k?? )

Just let it be ...

Now, i'll just let it be, let it be....let it be, there will be an answer, so just let it be...

I've lost my own reflection, don't know where im going to ...

And I feel that im away from the path. And if this is the moment I stand here on my own, if this is the right passage that somehow leads me home, I might be afraid but its my turn to be brave, I BELIEVE !!!!

Or should I say "Just let it go".... before anything happens....

爱的代价

Listening to this song lately, & it represents what I feels ......being emo again...

爱的代价 - 梁咏琪


也许我偶尔还是会想他
偶尔难免会惦记著他
就当他是个老朋友啊
也让我心疼也让我牵挂
只是我心中不再有火花
让往事都随风去吧
所有真心的 痴心的话
仍在我心中虽然已没有他
走吧 走吧 人总要学著自己长大
走吧 走吧 人生难免经历苦痛挣扎
走吧 走吧 为自己的心找一个家
也曾伤心流泪 也曾黯然心碎
这是爱的代价

Is he ??

"Is he? ..... Am I ....? So..... but.... " Those who are reading this must be thinking what am I writing about right? It just what keep buzzing my mind these few weeks .... I've tried & suceeded but it only last for 1 or 2 days i think.... I just can't get it off my mind, whenever im studying i can't get any facts into my brain, i ended up daydreaming...... haih....too bad. I kept telling myself don't think too much, just let things get on naturally.... ok i promise !!!