On the side of me

On the side of me - Corrinne May

(lyrics means a lot....love it so much)

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
but you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you

Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

误会

最讨厌被误会了

但越解释越觉得难过

growing.

there was one day, when i started to notice myself....staring on that same old page... and my sight has shifted onto both my hands. i slowly find out that i am no longer young or should i say not kiddo anymore, and look up further... both my eyes... that's a sign of ageing, but i prefer to say "growing". CHANGES has surround me all times and my friends, family, taking a look on the photos we'd took.

today, after having fetch mum to mon't kiara club and after studying for some time, i drive along slowly, without any destination in mind, and surprisingly that was actually a not bad idea to take a breath from our ever busy lifestyle. looking at the green grasses land, and there were birds chipping, and clouds covering the blue sky....

also, i'd always been pop into the time with similar numbers, 09:09, 21:21, 16:16, 23:23, everyday i will at least see these 4-5 times, wondering does this happen to everyone??

and this place 'PALM VILLE' keeps appearing in my dream, the funny thing is that i always see the big sign board with these words 'PALM VILLE' on it, what does it signal?? a bit curious... but here are some photos took when i got up the condo just opposite of klcc, i like the klcc view but not to such close extent, any view from you guys??

i enjoy the silence . . . . .

what a nice place to be .... sitting down with dear angela..... chatting from 12 - 5pm, those days how we used to be and now looking at changes we have gone through within these years, it just look so special to me.

and not to forget to recommend to all guys and gals that pizzas here were fabulous, certainly far more better than pizza hut or other italian restaurants. not only that, prices were cheap, we ordered two regular pizzas at only RM31.90 .... and the environment was too nice, really a nice place for chit chats...

lastly, hoping everyone enjoy their current life and not to do something just for the sake of completing it. and i have found mine . . . to work towards my goal from now on.

haywire

my life has gone H.A.Y.W.I.R.E . . . . . not in timing wise, but in terms of goals in life and also commitment and passion. i don't really know what i wish to achieve in life now, no plan, no passion, no determination on anything. laziness has been always surrounding me and i hate myself a lot being stuck in this situation. really feel like punching myself ....

and today i came across a book, saw this ' the quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of chosen field of endeavour. ' >>> a total reflect on myself , sigh :(

i always feel myself being packed up with loads of things, yet not completing any... the only moment i don't feel such when im with my lovely friends, where spending time with them seems to be precious one. today, i have got that warm feeling though bro has gone to melaka, where dad took out his guitar, was playing sentimental songs, which were too lovely and meaningful to me, and mum & I sing along ... so nice!

thanks a lot to sam for the encouragement, told me " if you think you can win, you can! Faith is necessary to victory" .... " to make it to the top, you've got to want it with all your heart"

tense

I had a weird tension that made my forehead like it was tightening & letting go over and over again.

It was not an easy thing to get something done when you do not wish to....

This afternoon, i put the bucket in the sink and run water into it. Lots of things was running through my mind just like the volume of water .... and i just do not understand why human has so much to worry about and perhaps a step back would make things clearer and not to hold on to their own principle as taking advice is not a bad one too... rather than getting stuck in there and yet still wanting to achieve your target.

Now I look closer, i found that im stuck in life and yet i would like to have a break in life after 3 years stuck in ACCA....i would really wish to priortise things all over ... sigh

Just had lunch with a Phd holder, i had notice that his ear loop is so BIGGG... & so THICK.... lol.. Yea, its really alike those Buddha's one..... had quite a nice talk with him & i was asking advice on mba and he say a minimum of mba is neccessary in today's world!! And, i was in doubt in a moment, and this reminds me on CIA qualification as explained by mr. goh, saying sunway students can now get 3 qualifications ......I don't think its an honour for myself to have such a long LONG list of qualification but without the neccessary skills.....

Still hesitating on my next step, any suggestions?? or if any of you will be flying to uk to further studies, inform me please, as i will need companion if im joining, lol....

tired...

after a long journey back to hometown to fetch grandma here, i don't quite like this kinda long travelling as i was the driver, not too long, takes about 2 hours there, where we always reach in only a hour, thanks to the raya traffic! and worst still where on the way back home, rains were pouring cats and dogs and i couldn't see the road, felt so unsafe...

and i meet mr. goh today when we were taking lunch in a vegetarian restaurant at taman desa with grandma, i was a moment stunned because there was a guy turning back to look for extra chairs & as i was just prepared to answer 'sure', then i slowly notice a so familiar chin, lol then its mr. goh, with his wife and daughter....

now only i notice they were mr. goh staying around my area, and mr. michael too !! its such a little small world.... it reminds me of meeting some of my friends in overseas during holidays.... a nice one...

im terribly tired now , mon another occassion, hoping for more time to devote on studies....off im going to bed....