He's running out of time

Today, get to hear from my brother that one of his friend, so unfortunately was certified that he was infected on blood leukemia, & now there’s only 1 week left for him to live in this memorable world, I was so shock & sad at the same time. And the sad thing is that only his parents & friends know about it( I meant 1 week life), the victim himself know nothing about it, at this time I feel like crying, how can this happen to him?? As what my bro told me that the friend of his would have 2 weeks time to live if he choose not to get onto the chemotherapy treatment & would only have 1 week left if he continues on the treatment.... how would you decide if you were to be in his position ??? Its really a tough decision... unlike what we used to sigh for our so called "tough" ones.... Im just so sorry to hear that..... why are human’s life just so fragile, our lives can just be taken off so easily, we wouldn’t even know what will happen to us tomorrow & wouldn’t even know what’ll happen next minute. From now on, I’ll really appreciate what god has given me, everything that im having now, I’m starting to have the motivation for myself to work hard for what I wish to, I’ll not ruin every opportunity that god is giving it to me....... APPRECIATE EVERY MOMENT THAT YOU ARE HAVING NOW !!!

Here I would just like to pray very hard for him, hoping that the miracle will certainly happen that he’ll not just go off so easily while he has not done anything wrong in this world, also I believe that there’s just too much in this world that he has not seen or done before, hoping that he’ll not give up so easily, continue to fight on with those virus cells,( tears start filling my eyes)
why not this happen on those who have done something terribly wrong & unforgivable?? Also, hoping that all of you who’s reading this, please pray together ...pls.....(tears rolling down of my cheeks...)

What's wrong with me ??

Today, i got back my audit progress test paper, i can't believe that i don't feel anything about it where i used to be looking it so seriously, i can't deny that the results are bad this time because i just took things for granted, where i didn't prepare properly for it & i didn't even treat it as an exam, only see it as an exercise....hahaha.... What's wrong with me ?? Am I alright here??

I've changed from someone who's used to study often into now where i only hold on my notes ocassionally... when i have the mood to study. But things are just not turning out right whereby im suppose to be studying enormously hard when the knowledge is getting tougher to understand in this level...

Can anyone just WAKE ME UP !!!! Wake me up inside!! Currently listening to : Wake Me Up When September Ends . (It'll be too late when sept ends ..hehe.. when the next test is just 2 weeks away....)

Hooray !!

Today, i was just too happy as it was an expected plan to go for karaoke, though i'd wish to go there for weeks, but too bad some of them wasn't willing to accompany me there. Where at first i suggested to go for it but no one seems to follow ...but when siao wah says she's going for it, everyone seems to just follow....huh.. WHAT ??? Why is it so ? But i guess because she has some kinda unique characteristic or should i say she's a born leader, with leadership where everyone seems to agree & listen to what she says or maybe she has reason behind doing everything that somehow will be able to convince others ... anyway really thanks a lot ya....if not i don't i'll be able to go for karaoke for months i guess... (dedicated to her : Because Of You)
hahaha finally wish fulfilled !!!


It only took 3 minutes drive to Pyramid & happily we drove there.... ngek ngek ngek!!! It was too fun there (except for the food) , where all of us got to sing, scream & lastly shout all out where we would not be doing it anywhere else..... Had some fun moments there where i can just not think of the reality of loads waiting for me to study.....

Okay, that's for the day...& its 12 midnight now while i've just attended night class till 9pm... shocking right ?? Ya, its just another reality, but though sometimes its tiring but i enjoy the moments to be with all my friends ....luv u all !!!

Tracing my footsteps...

Its been part & parcel of my life, where i used to chat & giggle around with my friends,where they will be there to listen to me, BUT now seems like im being out of the clique,don't ask me why coz i don't know the reason as well, perhaps i just want to be alone for sometimes,

and sometimes i lie inside for myself for hours,sometimes i feel alone & lonely all by myself....

I wipe away all my tears when i cry, I fight away all my fears when i scream,swallow up in the sound of my screaming,to cease the fear of my silent nights...

I hold my breath as this life starts to takes its toll,i feel i've lost all faith in the things that i've achieved,i've woken up now to find myself,in the shadows i've created,that now he's gone, & its not worth mentioning it,i've no heart feelings,but there's just a feeling burning deep inside of me, that i simply can't release it, simply can't....

It's hard to wait for something that, you know may never happen but, its even harder to give up, especially when its everything you wanted...

Lately I'm so tired being here,suppressed by all my childish fears,memories flashed through my mind, the thought of those happy moments,that there's just too much that time could not erase,& hoping that it'll remain forever & ever, do FRIENDSHIP last forever ?? I BELIEVE in Forever Friends, Yes i do...

Oh well, you can just ignore it as there's some confusion in myself....

listening to : My Immortal - Evanescence

Inside of me

My mind's so empty right now. I feel the urge to study ,yet the determination isn't there.I have the instincts to make a decision, but still hesitating and hoping it was the right choice.I want to try something new, yet the fear of critism and failure is overwhelming me. Sometimes i just need someone to love me, but actually i just want to be alone.

What am I talking about ?? Doubt it..... Am I in the right path ??? yea i guess so...

now listening to : Lost - Michael Buble, Dark Road - Annie Lennox

Be Inspired

When one door of hapiness closes,
another opens;
but often we look so long at the closed door,
that we do not see the one,
which has been open for us.

Feel like ....

Perhaps now ...I would just like to be standing in front of the sea ......where I can scream out loud ...LOUD .....enormously loud & long .......AHhhhhhhhh.............. . Don't worry ....i just don't know why now im feeling very pressured.... pressure till i hardly could breathe, as if there's something heavy pressing on my chest............. AaHhhhhhhhhhhh... again ..haha !!!!

What am I exactly expecting from myself ?? I don't know ... Perhaps just to do my very best in everything without regret..... but it just happens... okay not to mention about it again..


Oh no !!! Why am i now here... i should be studying while my progress test gonna fall next thurs.....